The Anatomy of Me.

CHAPTER 1 : COTTON WORDS FOR PLASTIC EARS

" hold up! wait a minute put a lil love in it! " screamed the speakers of Adrian's SEK800i. It was his alarm going off for the 7th time during the last hour. Eyes open, he reached for the phone which lay beside the pillow and pressed the turn off key. It was almost 9. He had spent the last 2 hours trying to grab some sleep, the only sleep he would get for the day. He had been up since the previous morning, and with the help of caffeine during the night, he had stayed up to study micro-econs and practice math for the exam today. He put the phone back down and got up. His ears suddenly stung. " ow..fuck " he muttered as he touched his left ear. It was bleeding a little. He got up, and headed straight to the small round mirror he had on his dressing table. Staring back at him was a face he knew all to well. He smiled. Same old attitude under a different mask. Head feeling heavy and emotions clearly unstable, he made his way into the bathroom to shower.

And that, was how i started the day. It's the eve of the penang show, and we've all been riding the wave of excitement. And thinking of making it through college today was a worry. I could barely focus what the crap i was writing in the exam. I did what I did and left. Had lunch with two celcom promoters.

Joe Yee, clumsy as ever, dropped another pair of chopsticks. I chuckled. After picking them up, she said " Nowdays, people aren't really thinking of getting married. It's harder. ". No kidding i thought. The topics we; me, daughter and Joe Yee talked about over lunch was pretty interesting.
She added " You would appeal to most spouses parents if you stayed with your mum. Or if your mum stayed with you. ". I'm not too sure about that but oh well. I thought my sis would rather have mum. Went back to class, Izzy handed me a paper. I wrote the quickest structure of my life and left the class before Mr. Bala came in. Hey. its still marks. lol. caught a cab and headed to pyramid, where justin picked me up. Home. Jamming. Supper. And now here I am.

CHAPTER 2 : LIPS SMILED YES. HEART SCREAMED NO.

Before i get to all the pic spam zoo crap, I'm INVITING/DEMANDING YOU TO BE AT INTI ON TH 6TH! BUY THE TICKET FROM ME ROARRRR!!


And now. I leave for penang with my best friends, my band. Till we're back. U people have fun doing whatever it is you people do.




CHAPTER 3 : PIC SPAM. WAH LIAO


community work ; help small kids win big games. TEAM SHADOWS




In Jack's dorm room. bloody nice.


alienware. no shit.








lying on his 1k plus silk bed from china




promote mee goreng campaign. after jamming


lol. yes. thats izzy shezzily


ezwan illham chew and adrian tan


Books ive read this month? JP's


currently reading. awesomely sinister for jap ladies.


chee yan loves to complain abt these gay like pics. well. we decided to keep them comming. =D




fucking posers huh. lol. what to do! raining! car parked far away! lol

Yup. Thats about all from this week. I promise, tons of pics when i get back from the island adventure. =)

what comes around goes around. now face my music.

I promised change, I delivered

" My name remained the same, but you'll hardly recognize me again. that, i guarendamnteed you. =) "

no egg and seafood for a month!? hmm not a prob =)

SO WHAT!? lolol i like pelican whiskcola. i like. a lot. i like.

whoo. i've had a lot to drink tonight, and yet i'm still awake, hyper and full of crap discussing internal organs with mr dr. izzy ilham chew lol and maggie the mag on msn. eyes hurt but no sleep! at least, not yet. blog duluuuu whoo.

it's a sunday morning. everyone is asleep. or rather should be. good. in a few hours time the world around me will awake, and i shall go to sleep. i like it that way. most of the time i blog around these times. lol. the still and silent of night is my bittersweet harmony. so the weekend. well. it's weird. i could use a lot of words. going through the motions. playing off emotions. but i get through. i do =) with a little help, from my FRIENDS! I FUCKINGGGG LOVEEE YOUUUU PPL! :D i know im making a lot of noise. but fuck what the neighbours think. hell, fuck what you think. so let's see hmm. okay yah i just remembered. its been sometime since i got prudence's msg about some outing today. to celebrate her bday with chris. anyway, me me me and kevvvvie and bradddyy and the wulfff and and the korean girl boy toy wanted to gooo shopping for stuff for the upcommin giggg in penang. so since we were there, and kev wanted to meet up with xian jin, we all crossed paths. nice seeing them again. lots of friends. cant rmbr. with my head like this erm. i rmbr chris the most. i talked to him a lot. lol. once my heir for sumthn only we both knew was sacred. march march march march :D triple k. it was nice catching up with him, im happy and proud for his band criskroz i think, if i spelled it right. but they are damn good and i wish them well! go chris! oh and we planning to meet up for regular lunches in ss15, since both our colls are near. kar weng, rmbr, when got nice ripe fruits call us yah. we drive over makan with u. lol!

after meeting them, went play pool with them. i beat prudence flat. she fought hard. but too bad i won anyway. haha. she was 80% laughing at im not sure what. but bnut braddiee bernard helped her so i was handicap but i won weh! give me kudos. lollol. so xj and kev went dinner, me and beng and brad wanted dinner, and the boys left i forgot where, prudence and mei xin ikut us home. i somehow suggested my fav place in the world to eat pan mee. FACE TO FACE!! wahaha. so makan there. both of them liked the food. good.after send them home, plan to lan at my place. came over bt didnt do much. fuck it la. best thing about 2nite is probably my henny kenny beery and the 2 whisky colaaaaaa downed. sorry yah i kaki botol. dnt fire me benjamin. i'm the best at what i do. i'm gonna sky rocket the international division =) nana nana nanana.whoa when ur tipsy, every song u listen to syok weh. boleh rasa. lolol. some pics! just for the sake of pics. shut up and scroll down to the next portion. oh and arsenal. wtf.

benggggg


braddd. my pan mee partner in crime xD


ini dua orang sesat


izzy " look at him la. eyes getting puffy tapi masih horn E, muka dah la cam nak tido mati, lips dia always tunjuk message bukan bukan. " LMFAO! i nvr knew a better asshole who can interpret pics on the first view.

okay. no seriously. i really am concentratin really hard to write this part properly, fully focused. okay. i'm good to go. ROTARACT CLUBBB WHEEE!!! My new passion. Since i got over 132, was wondering if i was ever going to be a part of sumthn of the same? fuck yeah. sure i would. lol. rotaract is the bomb man. we're all family. we're all friends. its just the best. greatest ppl with the best personality. not to mention we're all damn good looking. ahem ahem Natalie, paid me to say that. haha! but its true. best club in district, richest club in coll. i've been in it one month and now i'm going to be the next ****************** ooops but for now Fel is pretty busy so ive taken over time being as the clubs international director, and my task is to raise funds for international orgs. eg, projects laaaa. its for chatterbox! and ive spent the week planning, since its a good way to not screw my head and emotions arnd, i had to keep focus, or im gonna think and think. no good. whehe. so yup!! as a board member, i am proud to invite all to come to our green event on the 6th of march! its a friday, and its pure concert. i'm performing btw, and you guys can buy tickets from me! =) so pls do!! WWF is will be there, and tickets are rm5. 2.50 goes to wwf. =) hmm. i'll jst share sikit sikit. shhh. my dream team over the next sems. =) BRAD CEPAT INTI MALI!! vice p. bernard chan. theres gonna be plenty of places in the board =) IZZY, i want u in. amelia, u too. cheng kit, if you want too. farhan! u too! natalie, i hope u stay as comm director =) i'll need to look arnd the entire coll to scout board talent. dang dang.

this ticket, u ppl buy from me kayy? must must buy.

Now. I'm serious. As of right now, i'm 5 days and 18 hours away. From the biggest performance. of my life. Our lives, in terms of the band. Are we ready? of course. we've been working so hard. i hope we make an impact. hitz.fm, and what not, will be around. with all those other huge local bands, and yeahp, its an honor to be playing there with them. we've rented a van. rm1.2k. good deal. 12 of us, the band, and izzy ( i love you bro!!!) and boon thong cmin, and kevs coll mates cmin too, chee yan too! friends=) the best. thnx 4 the support ya'll! ok ok. song list!!

1. Undertable Romance
2. Halo Lady
3. Roses
4. Peter & Jane
5. shhh. it's a suprise.

whahaa..yup. you guessed it. all our OWN songs. fuck yeah. beat that loser cover bands. bet no1s hear halo and roses yet. hehe. so thats our set up. im seriously focusing all my strength and mental powress onto this gig, cause its massive. beyond hyped. well. thats a lie. havent felt it for a week. but i am going to i swear. excited. uhmm hmm. so after gig, sat night i hope poling can take us out clubbing la. show us the penang night life. gonna have a blast there. hpefully. cming back sunday. wheeeeeeeeee

Now. what's all this rubbish i hear? adrian is adrian no more? cheerful boy got soft and moody? i don't give a fuck frankly, about what you think about me. Ok. maybe its true, people do change. but its none of your damn business. you brag about your greatness at the helm, go ahead. your position speaks for you. congrats. applause. So listen here limpdickfuckups. firstly, i'm gonna be unbreakable. you won't even...touch. me. yet alone try. 2ndly. watch your back. u never, ever turn your back on a rattlesnake. i'm taking your spot. be preped. the day i break, is the day the beat of my heart stops somehwere out there. my heart beats in another. my significant other, which reminds me. wjy i have always wrote from the heart. and i damn sure know i am sober enough to say this, i frgging love you forays, and till death, till my death. so heed this world,
My name remains the same, but you'll hardly recognize me again. that, i guarendamntee you. =)

Then they bought me a mojito with extra pinches of salt, sugar and something explicit. :D love ya'll!!

but it worked..i flinched. =)


" I should've known better not to wait AROUND.
(WHY! did I Come Home..)
cause i HATE it here.
I should've known better not to wait AROUND.
( i'm getting RID of my phone..)
and i've made it Clear,
I should've known better not to wait AROUND. "

- ftsk, mywrstnghtmre

..

FUCK IT. =)
if i'm such a pain and misery,
such a paranoid psycho and you want to be free,
Then tighten the ropes and Hang Me.

College Diaries II

I am the C.E.O of Entrepreneurs Inc. I am the founder. I am the heartbeat of this organization. I make the decisions, I call the shots. Yes, this was a very pissed and scary looking Ajien Tan this afternoon, I assure you. Continued from earlier, when the guys did arrive, it was almost three. I asked for 4 id's, got a boardroom, and sent everyone in, before giving them some real first class lecture, a side of me i've never known,which really scared me too. I was preaching like a madman and suddenly, i stopped mid-sentence when i spotted this on Boon Thong's left arm.



What a beauty eh? Yeah. All rage forgotten, but they didn't forget. Everyone went home and did their work lol. But more on the tatt. RM600 from black cat. worth it sial..ehehe..see them A's? He got them out of love for me. haha! just kiddin. anyway. the GOssip penang gig is on, and more details in the next post. hehe

Moving on, off the record. I just finished my slides, and my other half just woke up to do sej essays..dang i miss sej..a lot..and now she's trying to get me to sleep. hahaz..no way larr xp. she has no idea i'm here typing this. buttt anyyywayyy, think of it this way. You've done your work, but your other half is struggling with loadsa work and has to stay up to finish em. Can you sleep like a pig knowing that? i sure as hell can't =) so i'm gonna fight for as many minutes as i can get...hehe. I love you larrrr!! and i miss you too..

So..with that, i wrap up this edition of coll diaries 2. more to come, as the results of assignments will be due soon. I shall now go read kev's blog for his latest entry. and my very the masterpiece and artistic new profile pic was brought to you , courtesy of kevin, in facetoface pan mee shoppe'.lmao. cheers mate. Yours truly, a very haggardy, lost and found looking C.E.O.

College Diaries I

So here I am , blogging from college. i must say, my coll's multimedia library rocks when you're in dire need of entertainment. Truth be told, I came early today to finish up a group assignment, and yes , in such predictable fashion, Izzy, Kah Chin, Boon Thong, Jack and the one and only Veno is nowhere to be seen in the library. What happened lar Entrepreneurs Inc.??! We're supposed to be the indistructable unit here, and you ppl leave me no choice but to kutuk you kau kau. At the end of the day, it's gonna be me who finishes all the work and I'll find myself preparing the powerpoint slides for presentation tonight. Sigh. The honorary title of Group leader does cling on to your back, weighing a ton. I guess this is not the last college diary entry, mark my words. So, AjienTan from Inti's multimedia room dominated by bookshelves and what not, signing out.

If only January had stayed

Sigh. No quotes today. Just getting straight to the point. I miss january. A free flowing, fun, and desirable month for me. Also, the only month where i'm carefree about my exams really, and i'm sure for most of us out there too. But it's gone now. It's already february. But the one thing to look forward to? later of course! hehe Besides that, let's recap some stuff from this week. Oh crap its raining outside. lol. First and foremost, I'll start with Veno. He gave me a ride home from coll, and yeah, ss15 lanes are horrible i tell you. He took someone's side mirror off. Literally. lol. a white myv. sad. Next. Econs assignment is under control. But it's the management one that i'm worried about. With most of my assignment mates skipping classes this week, looks like i am the only one harvesting the grain again. But oh nonono, i shall claim the credit, mark my wordssss..

Right. musically. LOLLIPOP!!!!!!! hahahah!! i'm so freaking addicted to lil wayne's original and framing hanley's cover of lollipop..it's catchy..don't get me wrong kayy, besides the obscene lyrics and all, it's actually pretty nice.

Next! What's up with Sky Palace? haha. Something interesting for our fans out there ( which accounts for less than 2 people ), we, are going to change the band name. After looking around for a few months, I've landed a name for us. Pretty neat one. ready for it? sure? kay cool.

BlackLightBanquet

yup. that's what we've settled for. nyehehe. Oh and some very good news. Gerald, a friend of our band , from another band, invited us to this kick ass huge event. Its still surreal to me and i'm still in dilemma to decide if we should do this or not. But here's the entire conversation.

(1:01 AM) Gerald:	DUDE
(1:03 AM) ღ adrian:	ssup
(1:04 AM) Gerald:	will you guys be interested in a gig in penang
(1:04 AM) Gerald:	juru autocity
(1:04 AM) Gerald:	around 20 thousand ppl
(1:04 AM) ღ adrian:	holy crap
(1:04 AM) ღ adrian:	serious? when?
(1:05 AM) Gerald:	28th february
(1:05 AM) ღ adrian:	wow thats pretty soon man
(1:05 AM) Gerald:	yea
(1:05 AM) Gerald:	would u guys be interested
(1:06 AM) ღ adrian:	interested for sure..but i'll ask the rest
(1:06 AM) ღ adrian:	other details man? transport?
(1:06 AM) ღ adrian:	any fee? set list?
(1:07 AM) Gerald:	ok this is a big event but since its also charity, the bands are not demanding anything la
(1:07 AM) Gerald:	but media coverage is promised la
(1:07 AM) Gerald:	so traeveling and accomodation will be on self basis
(1:07 AM) ღ adrian:	oh ok
(1:08 AM) Gerald:	it wil be in juru autocity
(1:08 AM) Gerald:	its an open air event
(1:08 AM) Gerald:	lots of big bands will be playing as well
(1:08 AM) Gerald:	like one buck short
(1:08 AM) Gerald:	and etc
(1:08 AM) ღ adrian:	cool man
(1:09 AM) Gerald:	let me noe by 2molo
(1:09 AM) Gerald:	cause i want to confirm with the organizer
(1:09 AM) ღ adrian:	aite man, will do

Yeah. Beyond excited i tell you. Now i just need to get beng and brad's confirmation, and we'll be on our way to penang. hehe. oh poling if you ever read this, you just could get to see my band play live after all =). And for those of you who think this is all made up, lol. Heres a link to Gerald's band's myspace page. go check them out, they're our buddies. www.myspace.com/beathesystemband. So..i'll blog again when more develops..i've gotta go watch the boston vs lakers game now, meet a 24 hour deadline agreement with me bandmates, and..spend the day on top of the world =). aites.

WARNING ! pics spam

Yeah i was supposed to upload this a long time ago..lol..so here are the main frames, and few random vids too. ehehe

Team SHADOWS during the 12hr outing. we won the last game. hehe

Team ASS. they were much better tho.

Hilmi. i'm sure as hell that was a strike.

That would be Kishen

And Kevin..

And me!! xp

And Syafiq..stylo.

and amanda..

and beng..

the guys..

the gurls..

me and justin at zanmai

we played i never with the result in having done it was to suck wasabi from the chopstick!

And now to the videosssss

Our low sung ceremony..LISTEN CAREFULLY TO WHAT WE WISH FOR. lol

Wahaha..and this was sometime last year, me and v goofin arnd..posted this cause i miss those times..a7x yo!

Jayden Forays ft. Sharon(lyrics) - Better Off

a buddy of mine ,Sharon . Raw Birds once wrote..

" When you turned your back,
The world fell upon me..
Suddenly, I lost myself
And I haven't found myself.. "

I took that off her blog entry, and its the line i liked most..really cool..so anyway, I got pretty bored, so i decided i need some new idea or inspiration to write some new tunes. I got sick of studyin econs already lol. So i just asked sharon to give me five random words and a title, and so i wrote a song in under 15 minutes. muahaha. not the story sharon had in mind, but oh well its a new emo song and i personally like it..hehe.. thanks for the idea and inspiration sharon! here are the lyrics, and as usual, the song can be heard in the minipod to the right.

Better Off

VERSE I
What is love?
When it's hard enough to commit
Everything i've said

I won't need this
I won't need you just walk away
Carved in stone
My empty heart


CHORUS I
I get my strength from my friends
To walk away
Tonight, eyes so bright
iIm so strong i won't cry
So goodbye..so goodbye..
tonight..

VERSE II
Your thousand words
Spoken of don't mean a thing
I'm not so sure right now
Promises
that we threw in a hurry
we can't take back
we've reached the end
i'm sorry

CHORUS II
i get my strength from my friends
to walk away
tonight, eyes so bright
i'm so strong i won't cry
so goodbye..so goodbye..
tonight..

So that's what's up. Leave a comment if you like it. Owh and. I'm opening this to you, my friends. If you so happen to have random words or lyrics and want them to be converted into a song, you can always come find me aite? Songwritter at your service :D till next entry, cheers